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| Outside |
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| Front Yard |
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| The sun came out and Hubby having fun on sidewalk while snow was melting |
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| Commemorating the special occasions. :) |
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| And Happy Chinese New Year! |
Oh, and happy belated Valentine's Day too!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Snow!
Even though this blog is not about snow, I am happy to present to you these photos - of snow - from a couple of weeks ago when these little white flurries came along!
Oh, and happy belated Valentine's Day too!
Oh, and happy belated Valentine's Day too!
Friday, February 4, 2011
New Year's Resolution: Confidence
My third (and last, but certainly not least) resolution of the year is somewhat difficult to explain, but hopefully it makes sense.
I had never had confidence issue. In fact, I had the opposite issue - too much confidence, or so I thought. Being an independent and perfectionisic soul, I had a lot of pride, always trying to do things on my own without asking for help (I really stunk at asking for help). I never liked to boast about anything, but this independence, this drive to do well made me rely on myself way too much, and I always took matters into my own hands. Because I was constantly planning and trying to be in control, I got a lot of things done; but at the same time, I worried a lot as I always thought about many different scenarios.
A few years ago, Hubby and I were apart for a school year, because of his job transfer and my school. We were sure that it was God's plan for us to take the offer even after I had been given a TAship, meaning I could not move just yet. Because I was now by myself most of the time, I developed this insecurity about locks - I checked my front door lock multiple times at night; and I checked my car door more than once every time I parked. I got much better since Hubby and I were under the same roof again; but I was still checking my locks multiple times. My confidence did not bring down my insecurity about locks. Around New Year's, I realized all of a sudden that far from being a confident self, I needed more confidence.
A different kind of confidence.
I used to be confident in my own self, but I was not confident enough in the Lord. Through Beth Moore's So Long, Insecurity book and simulcast, I realized I was in bondage of my perfectionism. My confidence in myself was simply a facade to cover up my insecurity of perfectionism. I finally understood I did not need confidence in my flesh or my "abilities" but confidence in the Lord. Rather, I needed to trust Him with all of me and receive the true confidence that comes only from God.
So this is really not a new year's resolution; it's part of my walk with God. Confidence in myself had been such a burden (I thought and worried a lot, did I say that already? :) In just the past few weeks, I have come to experience such new freedom in God because He is the one and only true source of confidence. I have subscribed to human confidence far too long and I am glad to bid it farewell.
Writing about these three New Year's resolutions had, surprisingly, been a very natural task for me. As I wrote, I was amazed by how easily and freely I talked about these three things, particularly the last two. A year ago, I would not have been able to share these, because I was still trusting in myself and focusing on myself way too much. If by reading these blog posts, you see anything that causes you to amaze at God, give Him praise and give Him thanks, for He is the wonderful Heavenly Father who never gives up on His children, you and me included.
I had never had confidence issue. In fact, I had the opposite issue - too much confidence, or so I thought. Being an independent and perfectionisic soul, I had a lot of pride, always trying to do things on my own without asking for help (I really stunk at asking for help). I never liked to boast about anything, but this independence, this drive to do well made me rely on myself way too much, and I always took matters into my own hands. Because I was constantly planning and trying to be in control, I got a lot of things done; but at the same time, I worried a lot as I always thought about many different scenarios.
A few years ago, Hubby and I were apart for a school year, because of his job transfer and my school. We were sure that it was God's plan for us to take the offer even after I had been given a TAship, meaning I could not move just yet. Because I was now by myself most of the time, I developed this insecurity about locks - I checked my front door lock multiple times at night; and I checked my car door more than once every time I parked. I got much better since Hubby and I were under the same roof again; but I was still checking my locks multiple times. My confidence did not bring down my insecurity about locks. Around New Year's, I realized all of a sudden that far from being a confident self, I needed more confidence.
A different kind of confidence.
I used to be confident in my own self, but I was not confident enough in the Lord. Through Beth Moore's So Long, Insecurity book and simulcast, I realized I was in bondage of my perfectionism. My confidence in myself was simply a facade to cover up my insecurity of perfectionism. I finally understood I did not need confidence in my flesh or my "abilities" but confidence in the Lord. Rather, I needed to trust Him with all of me and receive the true confidence that comes only from God.
So this is really not a new year's resolution; it's part of my walk with God. Confidence in myself had been such a burden (I thought and worried a lot, did I say that already? :) In just the past few weeks, I have come to experience such new freedom in God because He is the one and only true source of confidence. I have subscribed to human confidence far too long and I am glad to bid it farewell.
Writing about these three New Year's resolutions had, surprisingly, been a very natural task for me. As I wrote, I was amazed by how easily and freely I talked about these three things, particularly the last two. A year ago, I would not have been able to share these, because I was still trusting in myself and focusing on myself way too much. If by reading these blog posts, you see anything that causes you to amaze at God, give Him praise and give Him thanks, for He is the wonderful Heavenly Father who never gives up on His children, you and me included.
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