New Year's Resolution: Punctuality

Being on time is not my strong suit.

I have always tried to get one more thing done. So when I have a few minutes to spare before having to leave home or go do the next thing, I would fill up the next few minutes by finding something to do - put away one more thing, finish one more housework, read one more page of a book, send one more text, reply to one more email......

Nothing might seem wrong with it, but by trying to get one more thing done, I often run later than expected, and as a result, instead of having a few minutes to spare, I need to rush for the next thing. While this has not been much of an issue with work or school, Hubby can tell you that he has waited for me more times than he wants, and I have been late to appointments.

And I finally realized that this tendency to get one more thing done goes deeper than having a bad habit, or wanting to cross off another item on my to-do list, so to speak. It has a lot to do with being still, being at rest, being less perfectionist; or the opposite of it.

These past few weeks, I have become more aware of this trying-to-get-one-more-thing-done habit. I tell myself that it is okay to do this "one thing" later and that I need to focus on what I need to do right now, on the task at hand. Whatever this "one thing" is, it will still be there waiting for me.

While I have been late a few times, I find myself more at ease and more calm. I finally understand that I don't have to fill my every waking moment with things to do. It is perfectly fine to have a spare moment, to be still and not get every single thing done right away, because I don't have to be in the driver's seat and everything will still be alright.